MY ANYTIME SNACK

Words ain't rushing naturally today, mind feels restless at times. When I seep choice of beverage, food; elsewhere families mourn for one reason or the other. I keep doing meditation, chanting to keep calm but get bothered. Thats okay, I tell my own, son being strong doesn't mean to become emotionless, that is wrong! Our hearts should get bothered for others. We can't be bothered about home cleaning when neighbours go through crisis. Anytime crisis may land on us; if we remember this, we remain humanely. Son avoids me, I send him lessons of humanity. Our degrees are incomplete if we lack feeling. His father dislikes my interference, poking habit. 

What to do? I remain myself, cook whenever it feels like, Cristine cleans! I roam around islandwide, soak in shower & shine, eat, click!

Kolkata can't give me freedom to put on earphone, walk freely. I am not blaming anyone, situation is such. We must own car, even if Alto, I wouldn't ride regular. Upscaled Indian cities have similar facilities like this island, can't have same facilities. BTW, the blue top I have asked Cristine to give away, I have worn, gotten clicked, done with. The colour is nice, I ain't fond of frills, feels ancient.

Today is Rathyatra! When son was young, not influenced by atheist father, grandfathers; he would get wooden chariot from me every year. Our mother would decorate it with flowers, place idols; littler would go out with maternal grandma or paternal grandfather to draw chariot. The lanes of Kolkata would look colourful. Time passes fast, I miss those days! I wanted some free time then, now want son to visit us, so I can serve, take care of him. Too early in life he left home. I only wish him to stay well, secured. What else can I do? Should it be anything otherwise? We have no right to be parents if our hearts do not beat for our kids.

I just want to break shackles of different thoughts, keep out of any involvement! This isn't fleeting mind, it has to interfere, get deeply involved everywhere! I know thats irritating. Some behaviour irritates me too, I keep calm, not in habit of misbehaving, don't want to!

I indulge in hobbies. I keep cooking, eat major portions, read, listen to music. Whenever my semolina dhokla, idli fail, I get upma, enjoy having. Sometime back, I had Amriti / Amitti sweet with Muri-Khoi mix.

Since evening before yesterday, I had been trying to roast peanuts at home using minimal oil. The salt roasted peanuts were well done. This morning, spice coated peanuts in oven using 1tsp oil were overdone. I try to serve low oil snacks to man, in evening he needs with scotch! I have an issue about it, I was okay when he had wine.

My much loved Bengali rice plate looks like below. It had Hisla light curry, raw mango lentil curry, Taro stolon-garlic stir-fry!

Let's wrap up now. I don't know whats making me feel tired today, may be weird news of sorrow from different quarters. I feel better when I am outdoor; walking, eating this & that. Media needs to have restraints, not that we are saved if we avoid reality, close our eyes, but whats the point making my kinds fall sick, specially in case of parents whose kids stay far. 

I cooked this lightly sweet snack; vegan & gluten-free in this new wok I bought from Lazada!

I am loving it, not pricey either! I think I have shared a similar recipe last year, if not same! This time, I roasted sesame seeds, shredded coconut too! An yum vegetarian snacker; MY ANYTIME SNACKER got sticky easily! When we roast, blend, oil released mixes with sugar, binds quick. Raw coconut we love may cause stomach pain at times.

INGREDIENTS : 

SHREDDED COCONUT : 1 & 1/2 COFFEE MUG

WHITE SESAME SEED : 3 TBSP

WALNUT : 4-5

PISTACHIO : 5-6

SUGAR : 4-5 TSP

GREEN CARDAMOM POWDER : 1/4 TSP

PROCEDURE :

Roast white sesame seeds at minimal heat taken in wok, transfer to bowl.

Roast shredded coconut at minimal heat for3-4 minutes, transfer to bowl. Let cool.

Blend both to coarse powder. 

Transfer to wok, add sugar, green cardamom powder. 

Keep heat at minimal, stir continuously until mixture gets sticky.

Add chopped walnuts. 

Stir and transfer to plate, shape square. 

Sprinkle roasted, crushed pistachios. Shape as you wish. Enjoy!